sometimes I think my mental health is not right, there are many things going on I am trying to think a way to feel better but the world around me feels like its crumbling. Of course being patient is so difficult but I'll try. Sometimes I wonder how come I am me and I have these thoughts my highs and lows are getting quite strong now, I always knew my family was doomed anyway its gone even worse will there be a way out? the only beauty in my life are the early spring flowers.