Monday, 29 March 2010

Symptoms of depression

Psychological symptoms:
continuous low mood or sadness,
feelings of hopelessness and helplessness,
low self-esteem,
feelings of guilt,
feeling irritable and intolerant of others,
lack of motivation and little interest in things,
difficulty making decisions,
lack of enjoyment,
suicidal thoughts or thoughts of harming someone else,
feeling anxious or worried, and
reduced sex drive.

Physical symptoms:
slowed movement or speech,
change in appetite or weight (usually decreased, but sometimes increased),
unexplained aches and pains,
lack of energy or lack of interest in sex,
changes to the menstrual cycle, and
disturbed sleep patterns (for example, problems going to sleep or waking in the early hours of the morning).

Social symptoms:
not performing well at work,
taking part in fewer social activities and avoiding contact with friends,
reduced hobbies and interests, and
difficulties in home and family life.

sometimes i cry just like that i start crying
so i dont think i am normal
who is normal
still i dont want to be alive

whenever i think i am turning into a mental case i think all great artists were mental like vincent van gogh who painted beautiful things. and then i go and dance to some crazy shit that my sisters make fun of me for.

i wished in my lifetime i would create something beautiful.
i just want to not be a prisoner in everything. in uni in home in life in love
i just want to be free just to do anything i want. wouldnt death lead me to freedom?