alone
alone is as you make yourself
alone corrupts you to fight behind your own thoughts
alone haunts you day and night
alone is as you make yourself
i feared to feel the pain i felt
i realised the coward in me
was taking control of me
and i couldnt run from reality
i was isolating everything
something in me wasnt there
my body was there as a shell
my thoughts were lost somewhere else
but somehow i am slowly
wanting to spend the few days we have left with those i love
and somehow deep in me
i feel a little hapiness growing
like a little cherry blossom tree
its growing.
and i realised it is me who has control of my own life.
i can paint my life to be anything i want it to be
maybe i am slowly finding myself again.
^^