after awhile you just get used to it. this feeling. of. nothing.
the innocence of a young mind corrupts from the reality and hurt a life brings. and with age you grow you realise you analyse and see it for what it really is. how people just use and abuse the trust you hold for them and slowly you stop expecting anything from everyone. because it will be fine if you just trust in yourself. because that is all you have at the end.
the pain would seize to exist in this world you created. and other things will amuse you. every feeling looses meaning and you are consumed in this pessimistic view. that i dont care i gave up caring and i am fine here without you without them without anything. i am happy just as i am.